oh how he loves us, oh how he loves.

the enemy will stop at nothing.

nothing.

he's always waiting to attack.

he springs at any chance he can get to tear your world apart.

to make you feel

worthless, betrayed, unwanted, and useless.
just name a few.

we wants you to feel like you can no longer go on.

he likes to see you suffer.

actually, he thrives on it.

lately I feel as if he has been taking every chance he can get to make

my life horrible.

to ruin me one piece at a time.

to push me to my absolute breaking point.

he's been coming at me with full strength.

ruining my relationships, my self-esteem, and

my passion.

I just feel lately like I'm worthless.

like I can't do anything.

like no one could ever love me.

also, not only that, but a relationship with one of my closest friend

and one of my many mentors

was ruined.

I felt as if every second she kept telling me what I was doing wrong.

that I couldnt do anything right.

but I realize now that it was just the enemy speaking to me.

making me feel useless and betrayed.

and now its too late.

but as I have been going through this, I have been realizing

not just how much the enemy hates me,

but how much god loves me.

I was looking in the mirror today and I just felt like god speaking to me,

saying to me,

"abbie, your worth it.

your beautiful.

your strong."

wow.

god, you never cease to amaze me.

so from now on, I realize that no matter how bad it gets,

no matter how bad you feel.

he's always there.

watching over you.

protecting you.

telling you you're beautiful.

your strong.

and that your worth it.

psalms 139:14

I praise you because I am fearfully

and wonderfully made.

your works are wonderful.

I know that full well.