don't look at me, look at him.

it's hard to admit,
but I'm not perfect.
Actually, I'm pretty far from it.

very far.

and most of us are.

nobody is perfect.

we can't expect people to be.

we can't put them up on petistools.

because sooner or later, they'll let us down.

I have this problem.

there are certain people in my life who I look up to.

I expect them to be perfect.

and it's unfair.

to them.

and to me.

I get my hopes up thinking that they'll be someone I can trust in.

but then when they fall, I lose their trust.

It's led to alot of broken relationships in my life.

for example, my brother and I.

first, you need to know that my brother is such a inspiration to me.

I wish everyday that I could be as caring, kind, faithful as he is.

He is such a great leader and follower of christ.

I thought he was perfect.

totally unfair of me.

for so long, we were constantly fueding.

I thought that he would never make mistakes.

but he did.

and quite often.

I felt so neglected and alone.

I felt that nothing I knew was the same anymore.

that my perfect brother was failing me.

and I was confused.

then, we started really talking and trying to understand each other.

he had no idea that I had carried such high thoughts about him.

that I was constantly trying to be like him.

and I finally realized that

he's not perfect.

nobody is.

except god.

when I finally figured this out,

that was when our relationship started to mend.

we started to be able to talk to each other without fighting.

and I was able to not feel let down.

neglected.

hurt.

through this, I realize that you can't rely on people.

people are people.

human.

they'll always let you down.

the only person you can rely on is god.

he is perfect.

holy.

worthy.

he is the one you can put your trust in.

he will never let you down.

he is always there for you.

always.

and I am so thankful for that.

psalms 18:2

the lord is my rock, my fortress,

and my deliverer; my god is my rock

in whom I take refuge.