awaken my heart, awaken my soul.

more and more I find myself drained.
physically, mentally, emotionally.
and spirtually.
I find myself taking the easy way out because
of this.
I feel like I just have this constant "tired"
feeling all the time.
It's not like my schedule is full.
pretty much just dance, school, and practice.
not very busy, ehh?
but why do I feel so spent by the end of the week?
Also, I've been realizing how I don't have a time that
I spend with god each week.
and that I haven't spent nearly as much time praying and talking
with god as I normally do.
then it hit me.
that's why I feel so tired and weak by the end of the week.
spending time with god just rejuvenates my spirit.
his wisdom is what gives me stength to get through the week.
I need him.
badly.
when I talk to god, my spirit just feels content, like at peace.
it just feels right.
I have begun to realize that in his presence is where I belong.

we were singing a song at youth wednesday night that just
really pulled at my heart.
for so long, I was confused.
lost.
out of options.
I felt like I didn't belong anywhere.
only until realized that I belong with him.
with my lord.
in his presence.
the song just kept repeating
"I finally found where I belong, I finally found where I belong,
in your presence."
and it just literally had me in tears.
that the lord of the earth could allow me to be in his presence.
and not only that, but it was where I belong.
I don't know about you, but I think that's pretty cool.
actually, it's pretty awesome if you think about it :)

exodus 33:14
the lord replied,
"my presence will go with you,
and I will give you rest."